: : in tagalog : :

... Bakit nga naman may ibang Pilipino, ayaw na ayaw mag-Tagalog.
Para bang kinakahiya nilang gamitin ang sarili nilang wika. Samantalang, pumunta ka sa ibang bansa, at makikita mo na proud silang gamitin ang sarili nilang linggo. Dito sa Maynila, masmarami gugustuhin nilang magsalita sa Ingles kesa sa Tagalog.
Ako isa na ako dun, pero dahil minsan I feel that I can express myself more using English, (Cut me some slack, I wasn't able to apply the language for 6 years...) it's a shame and it's a sad thing for me but I try! Anyway...
May iba, kaya lang ayaw mag-Tagalog, kasi nagpapaka-sosyal. Gamit Taglish! Grrr... Ayaw na ayaw kong makakarinig ng ganito!Ang labo! Masnakakahiya kaya kung ganito ang gamit na salita. Kung hindi mo kayang magsalita ng tuwid at derecho na Ingles, mag-tagalog ka na lang kasi. Hmph!

... Isa sa mga binabasa ko ay ang libro ni Bob Ong: Stainless Longganisa. Kakatawa! Such a contrast to the other book that I'm reading: The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova! I've been reading this book for the longest time now... It's about vampires. I think I never really got over my I-wanna-be-a-vampire stage from the time of my devouring Anne Rice's novels... Anyway... Then I just heard a localized version of System of Down's Chopsuey in Tagalog!!! I can't remember who sang the song but it's pretty good! Hilarious - but really good! :-)

... I hope the weather changes soon. I really do NOT like this weather...

: : Da Vinci Code : :

i just heard that the movie was given a rated R...
unbeleivable...
while in other countries where it is also mostly Roman Catholics, the movie has been classified as appropriate for children...
sayang...
it's just a movie based on a fictional book. Why be scared with it's premise? Surely if one's faith is strong (strong enough?), then there's really nothing to worry about. One's faith should not even be tested with such things surely... And I'm not even religious!
Hmm...

I remember writing about the book & etc ...
Of Coincidence & Christianity
:-) I miss being passionate over something to write about...

: : just another tuesday night : :

just went to the gym so I'm still on a natural high *smile*
"endorphins make you happy!"
was chatting with my sis the other day about her adventures with the kids where she's having her OJT and she had me cracking up! kids say the darnest things I tell yah...
case 1: it's cook out time with the kids! teacher tells the kids (tots ages 2-3 yrs old) that they will be cooking! she holds up a can of corned beef and asks the class to guess what they will be cooking! the kiddies reply "corned beef"! but no wait, cutest lil boy wonder shouts CHICKEN! "I want chicken!", he gleams. Teacher tells cutey boy "No honey, we'll be cooking corned beef today". Cutey boy replies, "Ok, but I want chicken!" with the the cutest lil smile ever... The class proceeds to cook the corned beef, serve the food, sit, & enjoy their cooked meal. Cutey boy raises his hand and calls the teacher, "Waiter! I don't like this, could you take it out please. I want CHICKEN!". Teacher approaches cutey boy and tells him "Sorry dear, but remember Teacher is not a waiter." Cutey boy replies, "Ok! Teacher Waiter, could you get me a chicken?" HAHA :-) di nga naman cya waiter, pero pwede naman na maging teacher AT waiter ah...
Cutey boy proceeds to eat the corned beef. When the class ended and he saw his yaya, he tells her, "Yaya I want chicken!" Gusto nga naman kasi nga niya ng chicken eh! hehe
Kids are so adorable. I want one. haha :-)

: : here comes the Storm : :

I spoke too soon about Summer... The rainy season just started...
:-( *i don't like the rain*
And it all literally starts with a storm!!! *sigh*

Amazingly though, I woke up early today in spite of the cold, rainy, windy weather... Or maybe because there was a power outage & i was feeling hot. Most likely the latter... Anyway, it was good coz I was able to spend some quality time with lil sis - we had breakfast at Jollibee! Their chicken tocino rocks! hehe *babaw*
Then I finally went to the gym after almost a month of laziness! Haay... I tried to work out a sweat but it was too cold... Oh, and while the winds were howling outside, I was watching "The Perfect Storm" while running on the thread mill... How apt eh?
I'm now at work and it looks gloomy outside...
But I'm feeling all warm & fuzzy inside, thanks to Alan's treat of caramel macchiato & belgian waffle(with strawberries of course!). hihi

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Current song of the Moment: No Ordinary Morning by Chicane
I luv it... It's actually a sad song...
It was truly not an ordinary morning then...
Enough!

My #2 song of the moment is It's You It's Me by Kaskade. Love the lyrics:
You never know who's waiting for you
You never know when love is coming your way
But if tonight I look again into your eyes
And it's you and it's me you love
And it's you and it's me you love
*sigh*
'Wish He would leave me alone...
Or do I?
*pfft!*
whatever...

I really don't like the rainy weather... It brings out the mushiness in me.
Won't you agree? :-)

: : puerto galera - april 2006 : :

Whatdya get when you plan an impromptu trip to Puerto Galera with two hot gals & 3 guys; all of whom happen to be alocoholics & party animals(at heart)???
Answer:-> An adventure trip ala amazing race & Wild on E! (G! - galera baby!) hehe

Want pics?


Make the most of the Summer!!!

: : potipot : :

Check out our adventure/discovery trip to Potipot Island! -->



NICE!!!!
Luv the place!
Wanna go back...

: : hmph mood : :

It's HMPH mood, not HUMP mood silly...
I need to see the beach...
I am going to rant & rage now...

I'm too grouchy lately. Admittedly I have my normal grouchiness, but this week, even I noticed that it's just way over my normal dosage... *sigh* Too many upsetting things around me... Shit happens yeah? And then they say it always comes in three?! Well I think I've had my fair share for this week... Good thing it's Friday na! When it rains in Mari Land, it pours and soaks ME to the bone. F*%#%!
I am in pain for a dear friend... I hate the fact that she's going thru such an ordeal & there's not a single damn thing that I can do for her... I can't even think of anything coherent enough to say to her! And I usually make sense!(well most of the time that is...) I'm just at a blah right now... I also hate the fact that there are guys that are really so hateful and get away with their kind of crap! Unbelievable! But it does happen. And they continue to thrive. They have a whole kingdom unto themselves! Hell I happen to have the misfortune to even know & dealt with some of them. There's definitely one who tops the chart right now. Such is life eh?
Then comes the issue of so called friendship. *BIG SIGH* You think you know, but you just never do. You take the risk, and Faith slaps you in the face with Reality. Nice. Over-reacting? Perhaps I am. Maybe I am. But what's done is done. Makes me wonder what else... *BIGGER SIGH* Shit.
And then of course there's the bigger never ending issues called Family. *BIG BIGGER SIGH*
Or we can blame it all on the hormones of yours truly. Whatever.

But in spite of all of the above, there are still other aspects in my life that I am thankful for... (See I'm not that much of a pessimist, just a realist...)
For the gifts & pasalubongs that I received everyday this whole week! *smile* It's the thought that really counts. It really made me feel special in spite of it all... For the good chit chats with my sis, phone calls & conversations with dear friends... Made me feel that I am connected after all... And that somebody has my back no matter what...
Simple things... It may seem trivial... But I make them my own. And make them part of Me.
Ok, enough na. *smile* *SIGH*
Just breathe...

* Things to look forward to this weekend:
- I'm having dinner with the happy guys & gals later on tonight! Anytime is a good time to catch up.
- I'm going home to Laguna this weekend! Fresh air!
- It's my Lolo's 80th birthday bash! :-) There goes my diet... Good thing they'll be serving mostly pork dishes... Gotta stay away from the dessert table...
- I'm gonna take my Aunt shoe shopping in Liliw this weekend! And will make sure to stop by that fabulously quaint lil resto at the corner... Yum!
- Road trip to Taytay Falls, or anywhere with nice, old Spanish churches...
:-)
Just a few more days & I'm going to the BEACH!!! North side naman - Zambales. I need my beach fix - badly!
My travel partner tells me we're going here:

Ganda noh?
I can't wait!!!
Poof!
This is why I blog... It's my some sort of therapy. :-) Coz sometimes, paper (or in this case my pc) is more patient than man... (from the Dairy of Anne Frank)

: : found d song!!! : :

I finally know d name of the song that's been stuck in my head since Kaskade. hehe

Tada!!! -->

Naked & Sacred

wala lang...
I feel calm whenever I hear this song...

: : (en français) confiance : :

Il fait confiance une fois que cassé est difficile réparer... Triste mais lui est vrai... Je suis dérangé à ce qui s'est produit. Incroyable ! ! ! Mais ce qui est fait est fait. J'espère juste que les dommages ne sont pas celui étendu... Et qu'aucune autre information inutile n'a été divulguée à d'autres...

Ever heard/read anyone rant in French?
You just did.

: : * yawn * : :

i can't sleep... i'm stuck in the midst of sleeping, & wakefullness...
I'm tired - my body's aching, & my eyes are almost closing but my mind refuse to rest... restless, haunted me...
*yawn*
I have to start working out in the gym again. I really am getting chubby chubs... gotta get my act together if I wanna stay fit... Stupid of me to stop now when I have access to two gyms... lazy me...
*yawn*
Have to eat less rice... Avoid it if I can... But then again I don't really eat rice...
*yawn*
He's not even all that come to think of it... Let's not be bitchy.
*YAWN*
I'm sleepy...
*YAWN**YAWN**YAWN*
bonne nuit

: :hmm hmm again : :

* Can't seem to get this song out of my mind since Aris played it... But I don't really know the title of it. I'm terrrible with titles, artist names, album, and don't even count on me to sing it... But i know it's a bit of house & techno with the lyrics

"I wanna hold you naked... when I'm with you... since i met you... I wanna be good to you... something something..."

Anyway, it's a nice song... Damn what's the title?!?!? Hmmm hmmm...

* Was just doing a Sex and the City re-run, and here are some quotes that I just love:

Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone -- just as wild -- to run with.

There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous

I will not be the first one to speak. And if he never calls me again, I'll always think of him fondly. As an asshole.

When it comes to relationships, maybe we're all in glass houses, and shouldn't throw stones. Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies...

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be.

And lastly, here's a quote for my Dr. Alco-Sol: hehe

Carrie: A fuck buddy is a guy you probably dated once or twice and it didn't really go anywhere, but the sex is so great you sort of... keep him on call.
Samantha: Ooo, he's like dial-a-dick!
Samantha: Carrie, you can't date your fuck buddy.
Carrie: Say it a little louder, I don't think the old lady in the last row heard you.
Samantha: You're going to take the only person in your life that's there purely for sex, no strings attached, and turn him into a human being? Why?

I'm evil, yes I know. :-) You still love me though!

: : just blogging : :

* Got this from a friend, fill this up for me will yah? Indulge my self-absorbed curiousity. -> Johari Window

* I'm bored... And I'm at work , yes my dear, even on a legal national holiday... Got nothing to do at all so I'm just here getting triple pay while I do nothing but surf... *hush*

* Thank God she's NOT!!! I can now breathe easily...

* The first time she saw him, she didn't think anything of him. The second time, still no reaction - yes he was cute, but that was it, so were the other guys. Then comes the challenge. Only then did she look twice & gave it a thought. But then after a time, the feeling of being challenged eventually wore off, then there was none. None at all. Just plain apathy. Another Mr. Right Now. So much for happy ending.

* Went to Kaskade last Wednesday! I like the open air setting - with the moon & stars & the gentle see breeze as your ambience (it wasn't stinky as I expected). Love the fireworks! But I must say, it wasn't all that as I expected, though it was pretty good to hear It's you It's Me, the crowd of course went crazy when he played it. The after-party was way WAY better... *wink*wink*

* I need a vacation. Nobody believes me when I tell them that I don't have any beach plans for this summer yet. Coz they know how much of a beach addict I am! Maybe I'll do Boracay this May - yes, maybe I will!!! Hey, that's enough time to work on the extra pounds... Damnit I gained 5 pounds!!! I'm a fat hippo now...

* Got my official PADI diver's ID yesterday!!! *yey!!!* now, I gotta plan my next dive trip...

: : secrets : :

everybody has secrets...
skeleton(s) in the closet... Whatever you may want to call it.
everybody has one...
Some secrets are better off left unsaid.
Some are unspeakable that we'll carry them to our graves... And then some that you wish you didn't know.
But there are some secrets that cannot be hidden for long... No matter how hard you try to keep it as one, it will still eventually come out. Too bad.
Just like reality, just when you think everything's going smoothly, where everything's fine & dandy, harsh reality has it's own way of creeping up on you and bite you in the ass when you least expect it. BOOM!
That's it.

I'm upset, happy, & sad at the current situation of a very dear friend of mine.
I'm upset coz this is happening. I can say "I told you so", and "You should've known better" & all that guilty talk of what could've/should've been. But what good will that do? None at all...
I'm happy coz it's a beautiful thing...
But I'm sad that it turned out this way...
Should've-would've-could've.
Just like what Dr Bailey said in Grey's Anatomy:

The stupidity of the human race, be thankful for that.

Coz sometimes, the most beautiful & brilliant things are results of this so called stupidty... We might not like the results, but it happens... Accept & Live with it.
It gets better.

: : Play my song... : :

Went out last night with 2 girlfriends of mine, our PimpMaster followed shortly after... :-) First stop was Rockwell where I bought a fab pair of white pants from Topshop! *yey!* Finally found the perfect white pants that flatters my behind. Wasn't planning on buying - it's Aris' fault! Hehe. We bought the same type of pants! Chilled at Mati's for some drinks, gorged on their yummy dip & pita bread, & of course a bit of catching up... So much chika!!! Whatd dya expect when you put three ladies in one table & beers aplenty - of course it's gossip time! Haha. Then when we had enough of talking, headed over to Embassy for some dancing! Great music - of course! *wink*wink* We're having a dry run for our night with Kaskade this Wednesday! It was a cool night of hangin out - nice fun.

I feel up & about although I hardly had any sleep last night. Not cranky. No hang over. Just fine. It's amazing what a single *kilig* phone call can do. *HUGE GRIN* I'm smiling just thinking about it. :-D Next time I won't flake. Can I just say that he looked real cute last night... Hehe

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Sis & I are going home to the province later. I need to see my Lola, I miss her, and & feel bad that I haven't been able to see her as much as I want to... I guess I've been avoiding the prospect of going "home". They don't have to say it, but eversince what happened, I can feel their eyes on us, and I know they mean well, but they shouldn't feel sorry for what happened. It's all for the best really. There are just some things that are really not meant to be. It sucks, but that's Life. And we get along just fine... No drama.

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I'm excited for Wednesday-Kaskade! Hehe. Yah know for sure it's gonna be a crazy night!!! Just the way we like it! :-D

: : To be or no to be... in a rut that is : :

Ever been stuck in a rut before? It's so easy to fall into one... To let yourself wallow & sink deeper & deeper into it... And damn is it hard to come OUT of it...

Case 1 of the endless: I haven't gone to the gym for almost 3 weeks! Even longer than that I think... Yes, definitely longer than 3 weeks... Anyway, I've been too lazy lately -obviously! I'd rather go home and just sleep. Or watch Grey's Anatomy (I am too addicted with this show!). Or just EAT... Or sleep... You get the picture. So thus the Fat Cow = Me right now... Anyway, I was FINALLY able to D*R*A*G myself to the gym last Tuesday, and I mean literally forcefully drag myself to the place... Poof! Just the effort of going to the place is exhausting for me... *BIG SIGH* I'm that lazy right now... But hey, lazy fat cow me was able to successfully drag herself to the gym three times this week!! Hooray!!! *APPLAUSE* And now you can imagine the state of my muscles... *ugh!* No Pain, No Gain they say... But damn I'm just sore all over!!! My butt feels like it's in four places (that's more than the usual!!!), and my abdominal muscles (wishful thinking that I do have some... ) truly does hurt... Just have to push thru the pain... Don't I always?

Case 2: I have a dear friend who's in a "sticky situation" right now... Boy Problems. The ephemeral case of the "kami na ba?" syndrome. We've all been there... And maybe even wished that we haven't... Moving on, she knows what to do... But just can't make herself to do what it is that she know she has to do...

Case 3: I still fall in one my "dreaded" moods... Just the other day I was totally sucked in it. Hated it...


... Whatever the case maybe, I say its all a matter of choice really... Just how long will you allow yourself to BE in that rut is all up to you. Nobody else can pull you out of it except you and YOU alone... Your friends can give you that initial push, but the big heave has to come from you...

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On a different note, I heard Sean Paul is coming to Manila next month!!!!! How true is that???? If he is coming, daaamn, yah know I'm gonna be there baby! Loved him since I was in Georgetown!!! Like 8 years ago!!! *whew* calm down Mari... Anybody interested? ;-)

: : *whoa!* : :

I am still reeling from my weekend... *grin*
Still feeling some "after-effects" of the weekend hang over... Still hung over actually. And it's a Monday after the month-end batch. Nice one... Just smile & wave...

Talk about going impromptu party mode! I thought it was going to be a nice, quiet, relaxing weekend by the beach, or somewhere where the birds are chirping & the sun is shining, commune with nature, or maybe even do wall climbing, & supposed to be go kart racing... But your sea princess did a different kind of the "communing" kind. *hehe* Nothing perverted now! Just decided to hung out with dear friends, have fun, FUN, FUN & dance, DANCE, DANCE, & DANCE... PARTY!!!

I must say it was quite an unbeleivable night. Few rounds at Capone's with a dear, dear, DEAR friend. Laugh trip... food trip... Happy thoughts... Then, decided to hop on over to PICC for DJ Tiesto & to meet Bri & co. My Goodness! The place was packed! But it was well worth it. I'm not much of a lover for house music but man, this guy IS really GOOD! He is defintely the best!!! He'll definitely take you to a higher place... Love it!!! *BIG GRIN*

In Search of Sunrise

The Party didn't stop here of course... We decided to hop on over next to Club Industry at around 06:30... No need for the details... But I danced, and danced, danced, and danced.... I didn't get home 'till noon...
What a night...
What a morning...
What a Life!!!!
Gotta love it!!!
*SMILE!

*wink*wink*

still singing to the tunes of I'll Fly With You (Gigi d'agostino)...
I still believe in your eyes
I just don't care what
You have done in your life
Baby I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long
Please come by
I, I, I, I still believe in your eyes;
There is no choice,
I belong to your life
Because I will live
To love you someday;
You'll be my baby
And we'll fly away
And I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you,
I'll fly with you....

The Song in my head...


Thanks to Dottie, I am hooked & in love with this song... Wonder why... *wink*
Mmmwah!

: : blah mood : :

I find that I'm falling into one of my many, MANY moods lately...
Hmmm...

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CHIKA of the moment: (Okay I'm chismosa... Like you're not!)
somebody from work got preggers... they're both from work... and the clincher is that the guy is married... and that he just had a baby from his wife! AND he's not even ALL that goddamnit... wtf?!?!
I feel sorry for the girl... (She resigned.) Sabi nga sa Grey's Anatomy, she's like a human road kill & everybody's slowing down just to see the wreckage/carnage...
It's sad...
I think what my friend, John told me is quite appropriate for this scenario,

Don't get your honey where you're getting your money...

I hear yah... Coz when the good turns bad, it can get sooo BAD, & what's worse is that everybody else will know.
*sigh*

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I miss...
I need to go to the beach...
I think the heat is getting to me...
Melting my brain...
*blah*
I feel like I'm in the middle of nowhere, but I'm not exactly lost...
I feel like screaming & throwing a fit, but I'm not exactly angry nor upset...
But neither am I jovial...
*blah*blah*
there's a huge black swirling pool of nothingness
there's a girl walking, tiptoeing, balancing on the edges
not wanting her toes to be touched by the black nothingness
but still she persists to play, to test her balance
a gentle kiss of the wind can easily push her into the pool
and she know it
yet she persists
and still persists...

*BLAH*BLAH*BLAH*

: : i'm in a mood : :

hmmm.... Yes, I'm in a mood... What mood? I dunno... *sigh*

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thought you had all the answers to rest your heart upon. but something happens don't see it coming, now you can't stop yourself. now you're out there swimming in the deep. in the deep. Life keeps tumbling your heart in circles till you... let go till you shed your pride and you climb to heaven and you throw yourself off. now you're out there spinning in the deep. in the deep. in the deep. in the deep. and now you're out there spinning and now you're out there spinning in the deep. in the deep. in the deep. in the deep. If you want to be given everything, give everything up... Share lang...

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"Maybe part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight for so long is because we fear that something so great won't happen twice..."

""I've realized that Life is full of contradictions... Sometimes it's crazy to be sane. You need to fall to fly. People suffer because you care. You have to unlearn to know the lesson. You have to give up because you are strong. You have to be wrong to make things right... Nonetheless, Life's complexities are also Life's source of beauty. We should cry to laugh again... Fall apart to be whole again... And get hurt to Love again..."

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"By the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it would feel like we're carrying around a tumor in our body..." And it does...

"Knowing is better than wondering..." Is it? But then what you don't know, won't hurt you... Ignorance is bliss isn't it? But then you can only fool yourself for so long...

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Admittedly I'm a bitch. Cold-hearted rin ba daw? Am I? Sometimes I do think so.. Maybe I've morphed into an ice queen. Dya think? Things are actually quite simple. And it can remain simple. It only becomes complicated when you start to feel... And care... So I guess I'm no ice queen after all. Although I wish I was... And though I know some people think so...

How is it a good idea to open up and be vulnerable? That doesn't make any sense.

Enough.

But then I've been telling myself that same sentiment for the longest while now...

This is just most likely my hormones raging. It better be.

: : did i say happy week? NOT! : :

Let me just say that last week was by far one of the most horrible week that I've ever had the misfortune to have in my entire experience with the Bank...

Monday was a breeze... Little did I know that it was the calm before the storm...

Tuesday at work was also ok... The night before the dreaded month end batch... It was cool so far when I left my shift at 2200, Tuesday. I had the Embassy party to go to that night, and I was all psyched up for it. Had my costume all ready - picked it up from my tailor that same morning, although I gagged when I saw that the skirt was transformed into an ultra mini-mini skirt (I guess I forgot the fact that with the sizable ass of my ass the skirt will definitely hitch up - WAY UP!), I say what the hell right? It doesn't happen all the time! So might as well... So the costume was all set, with all it's trappings and all. THEN it turns out that my girl friend /date for the night is being attacked by laziness & does not feel like going anymore!!! WHAT? Then as it turns out, the invite is non-transferable so I can't just bring another friend along... Damn! Then it turns out that there is somebody else who I know will be going to the party... My flaker of a girl friend convinced me to go, since I was all ready for it anyway - sayang naman! So I went... BAD DECISION!!! Haay... I shouldn't have... Don't get me wrong, but the party was a BLAST - it definitely BLEW me away alright... But it was a very BAD thing... Too too BAD...

Moving on! So of course I had a major hang over the next day... Groggy & all sick inside and not just because of the alcohol from the night before... Anyway, as I went thru the door of our office, I immediately noticed that something was very VERY odd... There were no reports AT ALL for distribution? I knew it was a month end - surely I didn't sleep thru one whole day? Then I was informed that there really was no reports released, the reason being: PC crashed... And the clincher was that there's no back up... NO BACK UP??? What dept am I in again??? Frigging IT!!! So put it all in a nutshell, we were completely blind for 48 hours. No LN - incommunicado, no connection to the printer servers, no PRES, unable to do any download, and obviously no uploading of any files either, not even an access to any of the systems... Unbelievable!!! IT right??? Users were asking us to re-connect them when they had more access to the system compared to us at that time. It was a nightmare!!!! This continued on for 3 whole days.... I caved in on the 2nd day... I had my melt down... I reached a point wherein I just could not breathe, the walls were literally closing in on me and my throat was all clogged up and my eyes were burning up... I had to run to the wash room and there I blew my steam... I was followed by two of my dear officemates and they were there to make me paypay. I hyperventilated and all!!! It was horrible... I don't usually lose my cool!!! A guy friend from the office tapped me at the back and even asked, "Umiiyak ka pala?!" It was a first for me... But my girlfriends were saying that they were really just waiting for me to crack coz they could definitely see the pressure that I was on then... Haaay!!!!

Thank GOD - all the Gods, that it's all ok now. Slowly but surely we're picking up the pieces and going back to our usual normal cycle... Yes, we now have a backup for our pc - 2 of them!!! Whew!!! But man, I never ever EVER want to go through the same experience again. Is wear I WILL quit right there and then!!!

I am so thankful though, that I have dear friends that are there for me when I need them... And I don't even have to ask, because they just know... Awh... Love yah guys.

On a positive note, (God please don't jinx this one... pretty please...) my birthday is coming up soon!!! Whoopee!!! Luau party anyone??

: : still about last week : :

* just so you know, I will still be ranting quite a bit in this entry...*

Last week was REALLY not a good week, I think I was able to establish that fact, but I forgot some bits and pieces... So just wanted to put the final touches on it. Kinda like putting the cherry and chocolate syrup on top of a fabulous sundae.

* I lost my phone during the anniv party at Embassy Tuesday night... I was totally bummed... Lost a phone yet again!!! Don't ask how I lost it coz I can't even remember myself... But miracles of all miracles, found my dear phone when we went Saturday night!!! Awesome eh?! Have to commend the staff of that place, real nice people. It's a blessing in disguise that the bouncer, the washroom attendant, the cashier, and the manager remembers me... Hehe.. How you ask? You don't want to know... Trust me!

* I wasn't able to go to my check out dive last week... I felt that I was too stressed that if I do go, I just won't be able to enjoy the dive... Sayang lang... So I decided to move it to this weekend... Knocking on wood as we speak, and crossing my fingers (& legs!) that hopefully this pushes thru... I have my gear all set!!!

* Wasn't able to go to the gym the whole week!!!! I am now a fat cow... Also, I'm feeling the stress man... My skin's breakin out!!! *bawls* phooey!

* Ok, I'm now finished ranting...

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On a completely different note... Did I miss a beat? Or maybe not... No I did not actually... I'm just done with the questions. "We often mistake what we wish for, with what is..." I know. Admittedly(yes I can now admit so), it's not about this person, but it's more of the idea and the possibility... That maybe, just maybe... But it just isn't. I still don't. I thought I did... But I want what I don't want... And there's no point stressing over something that's only an almost sort-of-thing. Coz we all know almost doesn't count... (song yun ah) So I'm just gonna sit back, relax, enjoy the ride... No worries.

Happy thoughts... *grinning*