Saturday, June 25, 2005

: : half way down the year... : :



i can't believe that we're already halfway down the road for this year! it's almost the end of June!!! before we know it the -ber months will be here and then it's christmas time! :-) but ok, I'm getting ahead of myself...

it's been a while since I last blogged... i guess i've been busy... it's pretty easy to get caught up with everything else that's happening in our lives that we just forget some things just like that... everything is so fast paced nowadays that it's tough to keep up... take for example with your family and friends; you tell yourself that you'll call or see them more often, a week passes by and you scold yourself to pick up the damn phone and call or send an email, and then the next thing you know a month has already passed you by and you still haven't done whatever it is that you promised yourself you'd do!!! procrastination is terrible terrible thing... it's sad though, coz it shouldn't be that way, but it happens... or is it just me? i'm terrible... =)
I know it's a bit late into the year to make a resolution, but this time I really ought to try to eliminate this habit of mine. There's this quote that I like that says "If you take too long in deciding what to do with your life, you'll find you've done it." (- Pam Shaw ), I guess that definitely does not apply with me. Sigh...

I feel a bit down actually... I had my annual medical check-up (yup, one that i actually went to!), and I got my result just this Thursday... I apparently have minor thoracic dextroscoliosis... My spine has a minor curve. I mean I know it's minor and my Mom has comforted me that it's not life threathening (after of course I my panic attack of questions if I'm gonna die...), I still can't help but feel sorry for myself... I'm a self proclaimed hypochondriac, my sister and Mom can attest to that, so I always think that something is wrong with me. But now it's different, I'm given the knowledge that there IS something wrong with me... And I guess it makes me feel vulnerable... I've always thought that there's something medically wrong with me, but even I know that they're really nothing, but I never actually thought that there is really something wrong you know... Sigh....
I was so down I went to the Mall and bought a couple of tops and some lingerie...

And then I saw a picture... and then another picture...
Why????
Grrrrr...!!!!!

Had dinner and a movie with a girlfriend and we had a good chat about life, love, and love? and then some... When do you know when the time is THE time? And when do you know when it is THE one? Possibilities are endless... But when you think about it, everything else really boils down to one argument that you'll never really know until you give it a shot... So perhaps it's time to bite the bullet and just TRY it huh????
Hmmmm...