...mushy rainy monday...

So it's raining yet again...
I hate rain. It brings out the sentimental being in me.
And as I turn on the radio... Lo and behold, their topic for the night is "your favorite break-up songs, etc". It made me laugh. Nice! Seriously...

What songs do you listen to when you want to deal with a break-up or some fall-out of some sort? And what do you do to surpass such things?

Pretty interesting topic I must say. Let's see... Since it's already raining, and the mushiness inside me is creeping out slowly, I might as well delve in the soppy mood and well, wallow in it. Yes why not. :-) Besides, I don't have any plans for the night... By choice!
Top Songs to wallow in (at random): Un-break my Heart(Toni Braxton), Dear Lie(TLC), Crave(Marc Dorsey), Broken Vow!(from OST Meteor Garden)... And the list could go on and on... Although I'm stumped with these at the moment...
Don't you hate it when you're in that god awful rut, when you actually feel the physical agony of your heart breaking (damnit I'm soppy tonight), and then you hear a song that just says it all for you... And then you can't do anything else but sing with the song ; full emote mode of course, and at the same time cry your heart out at the same time, as if ikaw yung nasa video nung kanta!!! Oh wag na magpa-kipot, aminin!!! Bwisit di ba? And then, as if the ordeal wasn't enough for you, you hit the back button (or repeat mode)and you play the song over and over and over and over again... making yourself go through, even re-live the pain of your break-up/fall-out whatever... *sigh* such sweet sorrow... oh the pain!!!
Another bad thing is when you "will" the phone to ring, and you hope - with all your hope, and pray to all the Gods and Saints that you can remember that it's that Mr. Somebody! Hoping that perhaps he could say something that can make everything better or something of the sort... You linger by the phone... You hold your mobile at all times, and you jump at every beep, and be put in misery when it doesn't... Shit!
One time I tried to fool myself that perhaps if I put my mobile on silent mode, (note that I've already "tried to fool myself"!) this way I thought I can pretend to be not expecting anything when in reality I'm anxiously awaiting even just a twitch from my damn mobile. What a lunatic... Turns out, I checked my mobile even more than I usually do. hehe :-p
Goodness!!! The things that you go through with such -ish!!!
From my high school days when we break up to make up and make up to break up... And the complex story of my so-called love(?) life now... Ay caramba!!!
How did it all become so complicated???
:-)
But I have to say... I wouldn't trade it all for anything... Good times man... Some painful memories, yes, but good nonetheless still...
Enough for now.
-FIN-