: : just ranting : :

I just had my third chocolate mint for the night (doing the graveyard shift). *yum* sugar overload... but what the heck, with a week like this, I need to have my uppers... something to keep me up & about... & to keep my mind from certain things & certain personalities as well... but i guess the third choc mint was a bit of a give away that I'm not exactly doing so well... damnit!

Yet another message from he-who-must-not-be-named. What the hell?!?! Is he or isn't he? What is that about? Or should I be asking myself that question?! I have no idea why i get so irritated when I do hear from him... But I do know I go through the same reaction when I don't... Ang labo talaga... Coz that's what we are - malabo. ENOUGH! He just doesn't get it... I don't either!

Had a little chat with a colleague the other night. The topic was about falling or being in Love. Yes dear friends, Love. He mentioned that he wouldn't mind to be in Love right now. "Wow!" I exclaimed. "Really?!" He of course was flabbergasted that I wouldn't want to... He suggested that maybe I just haven't pondered over it that much? Definitely! It's not that I don't want to be, if it happens it happens right? But come to think of it now,it really has been a while since I really even thought about it... Honestly! I haven't met anyone that has made me even consider the thought of it... Sad. There was a time when I thought falling in Love was the easiest thing in the world. Whatever happened with that? I grew up, that's what happened. But I shouldn't say that, coz the guy that I was having this conversation with is in his early thirties... What does that say about me? A pessimist? Perhaps. More of a realist.... Jaded? Yes, why not. Been hurt, disappointed and all that, and I've learned from them. But it doesn't mean I don't believe in IT anymore. I do. I still do... It'll happen in time... At the right moment, & hopefully with the right guy.

Cheers!