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have you ever had that feeling when you're bursting to say something but you just can't...
you can't because you're not even sure what it is you want to blurt out...
or you think you know for sure for a moment, but in an instant you realize that in fact you really still don't know for sure...
and then you further realize that maybe it's not even worth telling...
for what is there to tell...
nothing...
perhaps...
or is it really something...
maybe...
i doubt it....
i highly do think so...
what the hell am i saying???? i don't even know
talk about a bunch of undecided bullshit...
that's what it is...
nonsensical nonsense...
or you hope it is...
hope against hope it is...


this is the effect of doing graveyard shift just after your vacation from work... it instantly further muddles your brain among other things....