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Ever had a feeling about a situation wherein you had an inkling that something's up & bound to "happen"?(though your sane mind wished that it didn't, but then then your impulsive self clamored for it!) But when the situation that you felt was going to happen actually happened, it still leaves you in a state of total perplexity?!?!?!
The expected unexpectedness... Dumbfounding...

So of course now the question is, how do you deal with it?
Just how the hell do you????
Do you balk at the situation & pretend that it didn't happen and move on with the normalcy of your so-called life? And then stumble(purposely!) into something else and turn the whole situation into something that's even more puzzling! Wherein you jump from the frying pan and into to the fire? Which basically leaves you now in a situation wherein you're even more confused...
Because now you realize what is it exactly that you want... But wished you didn't.
So you go back inside your protective wall... And then what????
Then what????
What?????
Damn...