Friday, December 16, 2005

: : ??????????????????? : :

Ever had a feeling about a situation wherein you had an inkling that something's up & bound to "happen"?(though your sane mind wished that it didn't, but then then your impulsive self clamored for it!) But when the situation that you felt was going to happen actually happened, it still leaves you in a state of total perplexity?!?!?!
The expected unexpectedness... Dumbfounding...

So of course now the question is, how do you deal with it?
Just how the hell do you????
Do you balk at the situation & pretend that it didn't happen and move on with the normalcy of your so-called life? And then stumble(purposely!) into something else and turn the whole situation into something that's even more puzzling! Wherein you jump from the frying pan and into to the fire? Which basically leaves you now in a situation wherein you're even more confused...
Because now you realize what is it exactly that you want... But wished you didn't.
So you go back inside your protective wall... And then what????
Then what????
What?????
Damn...

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

: : Mistake by Fiona Apple : :


I'm gonna make a mistake
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time
'Cause I'm full as a tick
And I'm scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine
And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure
Had fun, so
I'm gonna FUCK it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path
And if you wanna make sense
Whatcha looking at me for
I'm no good at math
And when I find my way back,
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste
For a wellmade mistake
I wanna mistake why can't I make a mistake?
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why
Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste
For a wellmade mistake, I wanna
Make a mistake, why can't I make a mistake
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why


I think my current song of the moment explicitly describes the rut that I am in right now...
Why do I always chose the unpaved path? When there's obviously a much more easier way... Grrrrr....
SIGH.......

Sunday, December 11, 2005

: : Too Lost in You by Sugababes : :


You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)


I just happen to like the song... But I'm obviously NOT!!! - Whatever... Hell no.